The Muse
The Muse
Reach me:
Rite Of Passage
Famous Last Words
The Extended
Famous Last Words
In every truth that you'd deny
And each regret and each goodbye
was a mistake too great to hide
Who Am I?
Friday, 19 March 2010
Sometimes you look ahead too much till you forget to look back and realise all the stuffs that was left behind. We look to the future so much, that we at at times fail to even comprehend or appreciate the present, or the past. We do what we can for that distant goal, but we did not see what is right in front of us. Some people say the means justifies the end. But to me, the journey is more important than the end or the start.
Simply because the journey is what determines the destination.
21.
I still can't believe that I'm 21 years of age.
It seems like only yesterday that I was underneath the block talking crap with my secondary school friends after a game of street soccer.
It seems like only yesterday I was in the props room, making a ruckus with the other propstars.
How time flies.
So many memories, so many people. Each and every one of them made an impact in my life, whether big or small; an impact nonetheless. Some came with a bang, and left with a whisper. Some came quietly, but left me in wonder when they leave.
Thats the nature of life issn't it? One day that person's here and the next thing you know, he's gone. And then what matters most is not the fact of how long he was there beside you, but how much of an impact he had made.
And that brings about a question to the front of my head. What impact have I made on the people around me, past or present?
It was really a head-spinning question since I'm wasn't a very people person. I tend to just stick to myself at times but like every other human, deep inside, we want to know that we HAVE made an impression, an impact to the people around us.
I really don't know. I am not an outgoing person like Nazif or Arep, who seems to be able to infect people with their laughter and cheeriness. I wasn't a good or inspirational leader like Faan or Faizul whom people can look up to as a role model. Nor was I a confident yet borderline tyrannical leader like Din or Fahmi (I joke).
Come to think of it, this brings about ANOTHER question. Who am I really?
Who is this Muhammad Sufyan Al-Khalifah Ibn Roslan?
Thing is, it really depends on who you ask. Different people will tell you different things about me. Lets take for example, should you ask Faan, he would tell you that I'm a analytical, psychological guy who likes to indulge in theological debates but yet am very crappy and likes to daydream crazy things.
BUT, should you ask him about me a few years back, he would simply say that I am an Emokid.
Yes, you get that right. Emokid.
To tell the truth, I was NEVER one.
Yes, I do admit that I do listen to emo bands but being one? No, never.
You see, thats the thing. People's perception of you changes over time, because they get to know you better or experience more of your quirks as time goes by. So perception is never a constant thing, especially towards human behaviour.
Truth is, I don't fully know myself yet. With every day that passes by, I'm constantly knowing new things about myself. And not to mention getting confused over myself too. Its like one of those times when you don't normally do something but you go ahead and do it and after that, you're asking yourself, "What the hell did I do that for?".
I'm still finding myself, and always will. Its as if I am in a whirlpool of change, and I'm at the eye of it. I'm the only constant while everything around me moves in hyperspeed.
In every step of the way I will be faced with obstacles. But I know these are just tests from Him. And furthermore, how I face these obstacles will further define who I am.
In every step of the way, I will be faced with times in which I need a guiding hand. But I know, He will always be beside me. And I will have my mentors to look for guidance.
In every step of the way, I will be faced with sadness, with heartbreak. But I know these are His Ways in getting me back to Him and making me stronger. And I shall have my loved ones around me to bring me back up again.
Because truth is, to be able to make an impact on others, you must first make an impact on yourself. Only then will everything radiate from you and touch others around you.
Fi amanillah, barakallahu feekum
=)
Simply because the journey is what determines the destination.
21.
I still can't believe that I'm 21 years of age.
It seems like only yesterday that I was underneath the block talking crap with my secondary school friends after a game of street soccer.
It seems like only yesterday I was in the props room, making a ruckus with the other propstars.
How time flies.
So many memories, so many people. Each and every one of them made an impact in my life, whether big or small; an impact nonetheless. Some came with a bang, and left with a whisper. Some came quietly, but left me in wonder when they leave.
Thats the nature of life issn't it? One day that person's here and the next thing you know, he's gone. And then what matters most is not the fact of how long he was there beside you, but how much of an impact he had made.
And that brings about a question to the front of my head. What impact have I made on the people around me, past or present?
It was really a head-spinning question since I'm wasn't a very people person. I tend to just stick to myself at times but like every other human, deep inside, we want to know that we HAVE made an impression, an impact to the people around us.
I really don't know. I am not an outgoing person like Nazif or Arep, who seems to be able to infect people with their laughter and cheeriness. I wasn't a good or inspirational leader like Faan or Faizul whom people can look up to as a role model. Nor was I a confident yet borderline tyrannical leader like Din or Fahmi (I joke).
Come to think of it, this brings about ANOTHER question. Who am I really?
Who is this Muhammad Sufyan Al-Khalifah Ibn Roslan?
Thing is, it really depends on who you ask. Different people will tell you different things about me. Lets take for example, should you ask Faan, he would tell you that I'm a analytical, psychological guy who likes to indulge in theological debates but yet am very crappy and likes to daydream crazy things.
BUT, should you ask him about me a few years back, he would simply say that I am an Emokid.
Yes, you get that right. Emokid.
To tell the truth, I was NEVER one.
Yes, I do admit that I do listen to emo bands but being one? No, never.
You see, thats the thing. People's perception of you changes over time, because they get to know you better or experience more of your quirks as time goes by. So perception is never a constant thing, especially towards human behaviour.
Truth is, I don't fully know myself yet. With every day that passes by, I'm constantly knowing new things about myself. And not to mention getting confused over myself too. Its like one of those times when you don't normally do something but you go ahead and do it and after that, you're asking yourself, "What the hell did I do that for?".
I'm still finding myself, and always will. Its as if I am in a whirlpool of change, and I'm at the eye of it. I'm the only constant while everything around me moves in hyperspeed.
In every step of the way I will be faced with obstacles. But I know these are just tests from Him. And furthermore, how I face these obstacles will further define who I am.
In every step of the way, I will be faced with times in which I need a guiding hand. But I know, He will always be beside me. And I will have my mentors to look for guidance.
In every step of the way, I will be faced with sadness, with heartbreak. But I know these are His Ways in getting me back to Him and making me stronger. And I shall have my loved ones around me to bring me back up again.
Because truth is, to be able to make an impact on others, you must first make an impact on yourself. Only then will everything radiate from you and touch others around you.
Fi amanillah, barakallahu feekum
=)