The Muse
The Muse
Reach me:
Rite Of Passage
Famous Last Words
The Extended
Famous Last Words
In every truth that you'd deny
And each regret and each goodbye
was a mistake too great to hide
Exile
Friday, 11 September 2009
Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah
All praises be to Allah S.W.T, Lord of All Creation; from the highest, staunchest mountain to the smallest most insignificant microbe. He who showers every Being of His Creation with His Grace; His Generosity; His Compassion.
Thank you Lord. Thank you for making P.S.P a success even though it did not started brightly enough. Thank you for opening my eyes to the reality of it, as how I had shown Zahira, in contrast with our experience in RYC and now in PSP. Thank you Lord.
My heartfelt gratitude goes to the whole committee. Thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for giving your time and your utmost effort into this event. You guys don't know how much it means to me. Words can't quite convey my gratitude to you people I guess. But at this moment, its all I have. Thank you((:
To a certain programmer, what I said during the last short debrief was mainly for you. I don't care whether you trust me or not, whether you believe me or not but what I'm trying to say is that I have trusted you and I will always do. You may call me anything you want, a jerk, asshole, whatever, but never once did my trust in you wavered. I will not bow down to as low as that just because you called me those things. I have always believed that you have the ability, insyaAllah, through this event, you would realise that. And you would realise that I harbor not even an ounce of hatred or whatsoever towards you. I never did.
To *you, thank you. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for holding me back up when I felt like breaking down. Thank you for being constantly at my side, giving me the strength and supporting me through it all. Thank you. and I love you.
Yesterday's Night of Power was truly something special. I was a participant-turned-facilitator-cum-marshall, whatever that means. Weird thing was my group had only 7 participants in it, but facilitated by 4 facis. Talk about overkill.
Cakap Pasal Remaja was a tearjerker. Job very well done for the CPR team, and of course, Mr Director, Zul. But I personally think that Ustaz Sofian's part was too draggy. I slept through it, mainly because its either I have a light sleep so I can Tahajjud later or I don't sleep at all, thus not fulfilling the requirements to perform Tahajjud prayers.
Qiyam was a wonderous thing yesterday. Somewhat, I exceeded my expectations. Alhamdulillah
=))
The event ended after Subuh, but I did not went off straight after that. Sat around in a circle with Ustaz Ahmad in a very impromptu tabligh as he shares about how we could follow up on this NOP. Kinda weird because everyone there except for me and Azhar belongs to NEMC, with me coming from CMC and Azhar from NWMC. But still we shared our inputs together and alhamdulillah, manage to derive something good out of it.
After that, I was thinking of going home straight but instead saw the CMC facis chatting with each other at the tentage area. I joined them and we talked for quite some time. Again, it became a very impromptu sharing session as Taufiq, Shahrum and I goreng-ed Nabilah (Nasyitah's sister) about certain issues. But again, alhamdulillah input was very good and hopefully everyone gains something out of it, insyaAllah(:
Now, I watch as the clock ticks time away slowly but surely. Merely hours away before I start embarking on my journey. Just hours away before I start on my exile.
Some people have asked me why I am doing this, why I am imposing this upon myself. Questions is, why can't I?
This Ramadhan has undoubtedly been a very fruitful one for me. I have seen myself at my weakest. I have seen my vulnerabilities bared out all before me. I have insyaAllah tried harder to get closer to Him. And finally, I have finally known what it feels like to love someone for the sake of Allah S.W.T.
But I am not satisfied still. I am still weak, and I will always be. I need You, Lord. I need You always. Through my good days and my bad, I need You always, Lord.
So in this blessed last 10 nights of this blessed month, I will strive. I will strive to better myself for You, Lord. I will strive to be a better person and also strive to find the holy night, Lailatul Qadr', the Night of a Thousand Months. Guide me Lord, and give me the Strength to get through this.
This shall be my last entry for the month of Ramadhan.
To every one of my readers who have waited patiently with me over the years for me to update, to blog on rather cumbersome thoughts of mine, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for putting up with me.
If ever anyone who read this blog and found themselves hurt or angry over what I had written, I apologise sincerely from the bottom of my heart. My posts are never meant to hurt or provoke, only to encourage rational thought.
As such, I leave you now.
InsyaAllah I will return back after my journey.
Salam alaik. Barakallahu feekum. Fi amanillah.
Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulillah
All praises be to Allah S.W.T, Lord of All Creation; from the highest, staunchest mountain to the smallest most insignificant microbe. He who showers every Being of His Creation with His Grace; His Generosity; His Compassion.
Thank you Lord. Thank you for making P.S.P a success even though it did not started brightly enough. Thank you for opening my eyes to the reality of it, as how I had shown Zahira, in contrast with our experience in RYC and now in PSP. Thank you Lord.
My heartfelt gratitude goes to the whole committee. Thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for giving your time and your utmost effort into this event. You guys don't know how much it means to me. Words can't quite convey my gratitude to you people I guess. But at this moment, its all I have. Thank you((:
To a certain programmer, what I said during the last short debrief was mainly for you. I don't care whether you trust me or not, whether you believe me or not but what I'm trying to say is that I have trusted you and I will always do. You may call me anything you want, a jerk, asshole, whatever, but never once did my trust in you wavered. I will not bow down to as low as that just because you called me those things. I have always believed that you have the ability, insyaAllah, through this event, you would realise that. And you would realise that I harbor not even an ounce of hatred or whatsoever towards you. I never did.
To *you, thank you. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for holding me back up when I felt like breaking down. Thank you for being constantly at my side, giving me the strength and supporting me through it all. Thank you. and I love you.
Yesterday's Night of Power was truly something special. I was a participant-turned-facilitator-cum-marshall, whatever that means. Weird thing was my group had only 7 participants in it, but facilitated by 4 facis. Talk about overkill.
Cakap Pasal Remaja was a tearjerker. Job very well done for the CPR team, and of course, Mr Director, Zul. But I personally think that Ustaz Sofian's part was too draggy. I slept through it, mainly because its either I have a light sleep so I can Tahajjud later or I don't sleep at all, thus not fulfilling the requirements to perform Tahajjud prayers.
Qiyam was a wonderous thing yesterday. Somewhat, I exceeded my expectations. Alhamdulillah
=))
The event ended after Subuh, but I did not went off straight after that. Sat around in a circle with Ustaz Ahmad in a very impromptu tabligh as he shares about how we could follow up on this NOP. Kinda weird because everyone there except for me and Azhar belongs to NEMC, with me coming from CMC and Azhar from NWMC. But still we shared our inputs together and alhamdulillah, manage to derive something good out of it.
After that, I was thinking of going home straight but instead saw the CMC facis chatting with each other at the tentage area. I joined them and we talked for quite some time. Again, it became a very impromptu sharing session as Taufiq, Shahrum and I goreng-ed Nabilah (Nasyitah's sister) about certain issues. But again, alhamdulillah input was very good and hopefully everyone gains something out of it, insyaAllah(:
Now, I watch as the clock ticks time away slowly but surely. Merely hours away before I start embarking on my journey. Just hours away before I start on my exile.
Some people have asked me why I am doing this, why I am imposing this upon myself. Questions is, why can't I?
This Ramadhan has undoubtedly been a very fruitful one for me. I have seen myself at my weakest. I have seen my vulnerabilities bared out all before me. I have insyaAllah tried harder to get closer to Him. And finally, I have finally known what it feels like to love someone for the sake of Allah S.W.T.
But I am not satisfied still. I am still weak, and I will always be. I need You, Lord. I need You always. Through my good days and my bad, I need You always, Lord.
So in this blessed last 10 nights of this blessed month, I will strive. I will strive to better myself for You, Lord. I will strive to be a better person and also strive to find the holy night, Lailatul Qadr', the Night of a Thousand Months. Guide me Lord, and give me the Strength to get through this.
This shall be my last entry for the month of Ramadhan.
To every one of my readers who have waited patiently with me over the years for me to update, to blog on rather cumbersome thoughts of mine, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for putting up with me.
If ever anyone who read this blog and found themselves hurt or angry over what I had written, I apologise sincerely from the bottom of my heart. My posts are never meant to hurt or provoke, only to encourage rational thought.
As such, I leave you now.
InsyaAllah I will return back after my journey.
Salam alaik. Barakallahu feekum. Fi amanillah.