The Muse
The Muse
Reach me:
Rite Of Passage
Famous Last Words
The Extended
Famous Last Words
In every truth that you'd deny
And each regret and each goodbye
was a mistake too great to hide
Sunday, 30 August 2009
For once, I don't know how to start this post with.
My mind is cluttered with thoughts, besieging this already eradicating barriers.
It already broke 5 times within the last few days
I don't even have the reprieve, the time to able to set up the defences back before everything breaks apart yet again.
I can't find a reason to look forward to the day. I can't find a reason to wake up in the morning.
At times I just feel like lying there one whole day, not wanting to move.
But it has to go on. Life has to go on. No matter how hard it is to let go. No matter how much it hurts, no matter how heavy this heart is, life has to go on. I will carry this burden with me.
Faan told me : "Setiap puasa ada cobaannya. He tests you to remind you of who you are, of this blessed month. Its never easy bro, but walk through it. And then you'll find that this Ramadhan is a Ramadhan greater than the previous one you've experienced."
syukran jazilan ya akhi(:
The only times which I feel at peace is when my head touches the ground in reverence to Him. There is when I am able to let go of my heart's content, to just purge out everything; for there is nothing secret between Him and us. He knows us best for He created us.
And in one of those times, I realised something. I realised something so profound that for the first time in the last few days, I smiled. I smiled sincerely. And after I was done with the solat, the smile was still there.
Lord, I thank you. I thank you for showing me why You set me on this Path. It wasn't as I thought before. You never fail to marvel me with Your Intricacies eh? You have just answered the most underlying question that was gnawing inside me, Lord. Now I know. Now I know the promise is still in play. Guide me Lord and Guide her too. Guide us as we go our separate paths, to focus our deep love for each other, instead towards You. And one day, I beseech You, Almighty One, Guide us back again when You Deem it time to do so.
For I believe that if two souls were to be separated in their path in His Cause, verily, He Himself will make sure that those two souls will one day be intertwined yet again. But this time round, stronger than before. For it is with His Blessings.
Till the day our hearts intertwined again, my love
=)
My mind is cluttered with thoughts, besieging this already eradicating barriers.
It already broke 5 times within the last few days
I don't even have the reprieve, the time to able to set up the defences back before everything breaks apart yet again.
I can't find a reason to look forward to the day. I can't find a reason to wake up in the morning.
At times I just feel like lying there one whole day, not wanting to move.
But it has to go on. Life has to go on. No matter how hard it is to let go. No matter how much it hurts, no matter how heavy this heart is, life has to go on. I will carry this burden with me.
Faan told me : "Setiap puasa ada cobaannya. He tests you to remind you of who you are, of this blessed month. Its never easy bro, but walk through it. And then you'll find that this Ramadhan is a Ramadhan greater than the previous one you've experienced."
syukran jazilan ya akhi(:
The only times which I feel at peace is when my head touches the ground in reverence to Him. There is when I am able to let go of my heart's content, to just purge out everything; for there is nothing secret between Him and us. He knows us best for He created us.
And in one of those times, I realised something. I realised something so profound that for the first time in the last few days, I smiled. I smiled sincerely. And after I was done with the solat, the smile was still there.
Lord, I thank you. I thank you for showing me why You set me on this Path. It wasn't as I thought before. You never fail to marvel me with Your Intricacies eh? You have just answered the most underlying question that was gnawing inside me, Lord. Now I know. Now I know the promise is still in play. Guide me Lord and Guide her too. Guide us as we go our separate paths, to focus our deep love for each other, instead towards You. And one day, I beseech You, Almighty One, Guide us back again when You Deem it time to do so.
For I believe that if two souls were to be separated in their path in His Cause, verily, He Himself will make sure that those two souls will one day be intertwined yet again. But this time round, stronger than before. For it is with His Blessings.
Till the day our hearts intertwined again, my love
=)