It is about a girl that is confused and trying to walk away from something great but still holding on because she doesn't know what she truly feels. They both know there are some unexplainables in the relationship, but are too comfortable to face the facts, and they just keep things the way they are: "Some things we don't talk about, Rather do without and just hold the smile."

It seems like the guy wants things to keep progressing, but that can't happen because the girl doesn't know what she wants. He is ready to give her the world and devote himself completely to her and make her the queen of his everything. Maybe he knows that he can be everything she needs, so he tells her not to let him go.

They "pull apart and come together again and again" because they are on and off, hot and cold. She will pull away, then come back because he is there to be her "guardian when all is crumbling" and to "steady her hand." In short, he is always there, despite the fact that the girl often puts in barriers between them, suddenly imposing spaces between them, citing that she needs her space, when she hadn't really know what she had wanted in the first place. But whenever she turns around, the guy is always there behind her, trying his best to show the girl that its okay, that they'll make it together.

- Ben Wysocki (The Fray's drummer on Never Say Never's meaning).








"How do you know that you are ready? How do you know that you are sure about this?"


"Ready? Sure? No. I'm not at all ready or sure about this. Only fools delude themselves into thinking that they are so sure of things, that they are ready to face things. Am I certain? Am I sure that this time round it will be different from the other times? No. I will sincerely say no. I don't know at all if it will be different or not. But guess what? I will fight. I will give my best in this. For the first time in my life, I am actually scared of losing someone.

When nenek died, I was the only one who didn't cry. When all those shit happened in the past two relationships, I was the one who held on strong. The previous one, I was ready to give my all, but situation didn't warrant it. This time round, I'm not holding back. This time round, I want to make it work. I NEED to make it work. Do you know that for the first time in my life, when I looked into the mirror, I actually saw fear in it? Fear of the unknown of the future. Fear of taking the wrong steps. Most of all, fear of losing her. See bro, I ACTUALLY AM SCARED OF LOSING SOMEONE. Why? Why does she have this goddamn effect on me? I don't know. I really don't. Does she mean so much to me that its leading to this? Perhaps, I can't say. What I can tell you is yes. She means THAT MUCH to me.

I have been fighting for this relationship to work since the start. Even when others were throwing shit at me, I took it all and keep my head up. I won't let it bring me down even though I'm in this alone. Do I have people supporting me back then? No. I walked the path alone. I fought the battle alone. I have been fighting since day one and I will continue this fight. If she hadn't meant this much to me, what makes you think I would have continue fighting even till now? What does he know? Does he have to go through all this shit that I went through? Does he have to steel himself for the onslaught and at the same time make sure of the responsibility he holds in the organisation? No, he doesn't have to put up with all that. I don't seek to presume what he has to go through but I can't help wondering if its as bad as I do.

Sometimes, I do wish that it was an easier road. Sometimes, I do wish that I could wake up not having all these thoughts in my head besieging me. But I believe that He has His Reasons for making this road hard. I won't try and perceive with my limited vision to see what is up ahead. If I were to fail in this endeavour, I will fall hard. But with His Grace, I will one day rise back up and take it as a testament and atonement of whatever I had done last time. If I were to succeed, I will take it as merely an acknowledgement from Him that I were to be tested even more. Either way, it will be a testament of my Faith to Him. Whether or not I rise up; whether or not I fulfill my promise in making it to the end this time round.

So to answer your question, no, I am not at all ready or sure. Because I am still putting in my best efforts to make it through. I am still leaving it up to Him for the final decision. Only those who are sure and ready will do nothing about it and hide behind the pretense of patience as if they had done everything possible. And I promise you this, I am and I will continue to do everything to the best of my ability to get through this."


- This conversation happened two nights ago. No words were editted.