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In every truth that you'd deny
And each regret and each goodbye
was a mistake too great to hide
Nuraniku Mulai Menagis
Wednesday, 15 October 2008
I was at Ghufran earlier today to do my Asar and Maghrib prayers before sending dearest home.
As I was waiting for the Azan, I watched as a man with a bad limp came into the Iktikaf area and looked around for a chair. As all of the chairs are used by senior citizens, he proceeded to continue with his prayers, doing it standing despite his bad limp.
One of the senior citizens close to him offered the seat, but he refused, saying that the old pakcik needs it more than him. I watched as the man proceeded to do and finish his solat, albeit slowly because of his difficulty. My heart cried silently, saddened at his ordeal yet admired by his staunch desire to solat....
After sending dearest home, I made my way back to Jurong, and by the time I reached home, it was already Isyak. After I finished solat Isyak, I noticed my little brother, 7 years of age standing at the door watching me. I called him towards me and he sat on my lap as I read the doa after solat. After that, I asked him, "Adek buat aper kat situ?" He replied, "Adek tengok along tengah solat." Curiousity got the better of me so I enquired further. "Buat aper adek nak tengok along solat pulak?" and he answered... "Adek nak solat tapi adek tak tau macamaner. Abah slalu solat biler adek da tido, jadi adek nak tengok along solat jadi adek bole ikot".
Imagine your 7 year-old sibling coming up to you and saying that. I was beyond words. I couldn't find anything to say. But at that moment, certain moments of the past came flashing past...
3 years ago
I just signed up for SPMLS Kem Evo and had messaged my friends from Jurong Sec coming into SP to do the same. Azhar replied that he already did and is looking forward to it, while the rest did not reply. At McDonald's(T1A) I met Iman, one of my Jurong Sec friends coming to SP and so I asked him if he signed up for it. He said no. Why? In his words ,
"Pasal nanti kena paksa solat. Aku taknak solat."
a few months back
Me, Azhar and another close friend of ours are out on an outing at Orchard. The time was close to 7 and we have yet to solat Asar. As we passed the lane leading to Al-Falah Mosque, I said to them that we should do our Asar prayers first before continuing. Azhar agreed, while my other friend merely said... "Takper la, korang gi jer, aku nak gi kedai tu, takot ramai orang nanti"
a few weeks back
Me and abah were at Daru Arqam to perform our Maghrib prayers. As we're taking our ablutions, a group of youths came. The guys are all wearing shorts while the girls are all wearing tudung. Not uncommon you say, well how about this. The guys sat at the benches while the girls went off to take their ablution. Even after me and my dad were done with our prayers, they're still outside and since we both occupied the last saf, I apparently did not noticed at all that they went in and solat or not and by the time we're done, its around 4-5 mins to Isyak. My dad merely said... "Yang perempuan pakai tudung, solat...yang lelaki duduk luar tunggu, pakai seluar pendek. Kalau tanya kenapa tak solat, kasi alasan pakai seluar pendek, padahal yang in the first place, siapa suruh pakai? Yang perempuan pun satu, dah tau taknak bilang. Kenapa? Takot matair marah, tak kasi pakai seluar pendek? Kirekan Tuhan marah tak takot la eh?
With that, my mind snapped back to the current continuum of space and time. I thought about it, I pondered and it was there it came to me.
Why is it that those people who lack the capacity to solat often burns in them the desire to solat, while those who are fully equipped to do so, often holds of doing so, giving often abject reasons as to why he could not do so.
A cripple who refuses to burden others with his plight and completed his solat despite all the difficulties...
A 7 year-old boy who doesn't know how to solat, but wants to learn how to solat. So that he can bow down and prostrate to the Lord...
Such examples as this is where the beauty....and complexity of Life lies...
=)
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As I was waiting for the Azan, I watched as a man with a bad limp came into the Iktikaf area and looked around for a chair. As all of the chairs are used by senior citizens, he proceeded to continue with his prayers, doing it standing despite his bad limp.
One of the senior citizens close to him offered the seat, but he refused, saying that the old pakcik needs it more than him. I watched as the man proceeded to do and finish his solat, albeit slowly because of his difficulty. My heart cried silently, saddened at his ordeal yet admired by his staunch desire to solat....
After sending dearest home, I made my way back to Jurong, and by the time I reached home, it was already Isyak. After I finished solat Isyak, I noticed my little brother, 7 years of age standing at the door watching me. I called him towards me and he sat on my lap as I read the doa after solat. After that, I asked him, "Adek buat aper kat situ?" He replied, "Adek tengok along tengah solat." Curiousity got the better of me so I enquired further. "Buat aper adek nak tengok along solat pulak?" and he answered... "Adek nak solat tapi adek tak tau macamaner. Abah slalu solat biler adek da tido, jadi adek nak tengok along solat jadi adek bole ikot".
Imagine your 7 year-old sibling coming up to you and saying that. I was beyond words. I couldn't find anything to say. But at that moment, certain moments of the past came flashing past...
3 years ago
I just signed up for SPMLS Kem Evo and had messaged my friends from Jurong Sec coming into SP to do the same. Azhar replied that he already did and is looking forward to it, while the rest did not reply. At McDonald's(T1A) I met Iman, one of my Jurong Sec friends coming to SP and so I asked him if he signed up for it. He said no. Why? In his words ,
"Pasal nanti kena paksa solat. Aku taknak solat."
a few months back
Me, Azhar and another close friend of ours are out on an outing at Orchard. The time was close to 7 and we have yet to solat Asar. As we passed the lane leading to Al-Falah Mosque, I said to them that we should do our Asar prayers first before continuing. Azhar agreed, while my other friend merely said... "Takper la, korang gi jer, aku nak gi kedai tu, takot ramai orang nanti"
a few weeks back
Me and abah were at Daru Arqam to perform our Maghrib prayers. As we're taking our ablutions, a group of youths came. The guys are all wearing shorts while the girls are all wearing tudung. Not uncommon you say, well how about this. The guys sat at the benches while the girls went off to take their ablution. Even after me and my dad were done with our prayers, they're still outside and since we both occupied the last saf, I apparently did not noticed at all that they went in and solat or not and by the time we're done, its around 4-5 mins to Isyak. My dad merely said... "Yang perempuan pakai tudung, solat...yang lelaki duduk luar tunggu, pakai seluar pendek. Kalau tanya kenapa tak solat, kasi alasan pakai seluar pendek, padahal yang in the first place, siapa suruh pakai? Yang perempuan pun satu, dah tau taknak bilang. Kenapa? Takot matair marah, tak kasi pakai seluar pendek? Kirekan Tuhan marah tak takot la eh?
With that, my mind snapped back to the current continuum of space and time. I thought about it, I pondered and it was there it came to me.
Why is it that those people who lack the capacity to solat often burns in them the desire to solat, while those who are fully equipped to do so, often holds of doing so, giving often abject reasons as to why he could not do so.
A cripple who refuses to burden others with his plight and completed his solat despite all the difficulties...
A 7 year-old boy who doesn't know how to solat, but wants to learn how to solat. So that he can bow down and prostrate to the Lord...
Such examples as this is where the beauty....and complexity of Life lies...
=)
nuraniku mulai menangis kerana tak dipedulikan lagi
Tinggalkan kebenaran
Agungkan kesombongan
Inikah petanda dariMu Tuhan?