aku yang memandang di dalam lubuk hati
mencari-cari zat rahsia yang katanya tersembunyi
aku yang melihat alam meliputi wujud menyertai
lalu ku pindahkan alam ke dalam mata hati

aku hakiki
aku mengerti
segala yang terjadi di langit dan di bumi
gunanya tiada fantasi,

pelik dan benar
qada' dan qadar
kau berilah ku kekuatan
agar dapat ku hindarkan
segala kesesatan

usah kau biar nafsuku terliur dari pandangan majazi ini,
aku yang hodoh lagi hina amat benar merindui
moga cahaya lailatul tak membutakan mataku
semoga segala puji tak ku meninggi diri
moga segala janji dapat juga ku penuh
moga dapatku hadapi tikaman dari belakang
lidah setajam pisau
ku tidak akan risau dengan cabaran sepanjang perjalanan

ku pasrah

ku akur

Alhamdulillah Syukur

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This week is GEMS registration week and once again the panic and hysteria to chose the modules for GEMS, whether preferred or peer-pressured, is somewhat overwhelming.

I still remembered during registration for my GEMS (Psychology and Counselling). I was doing the registration for Lin also since ours happened to be on the same timing and she is busy at that time. I used my desktop for her registration and my laptop for my registration. Ini la terserlah ke-kiasuan typical Singaporean. haha

In a moment of sheer forgetfulness, I tried to log into SAS to see my timetable. After various attempts to do so failed, only then did I remembered that for the moment, I'm not in SP anymore. Until I'm reinstated, all of my SP-related accounts will be suspended. InsyaAllah I will be back in. Results of the appeal have yet to come, but I'm praying for the best. And prepared for the worst. Or so I think.

People have been asking me, why I don't seem the least affected by this. Why do I seem like it means nothing to me. As if dropping out is just a norm that people go thru.

Tell you what.

Just because I don't show it, I don't feel it. What, you expect me to down crying on my knees?
You expect me to just wallow in my sorrow, blaming the world for doing this to me?

No way. I'm not like that. I just tell myself,

YOU DID THIS TO YOURSELF. WHATS THE USE OF WALLOWING? IT DOESN'T HELP THE SITUATION, ITS MAKING IT WORST.

Thats what I constantly remind myself when shit happens. Yeah, shit happens, so what. If you think you got it hard, think of the others who are suffering worst than you. Remember that whatever shit that you went through, it is nothing compared to what others have went.

If you were to think, "Nah I'm pretty sure no other person have gone through what I just went through." I say: "You my friend, have truly forgotten what our beloved Prophet have went through to put us where we are today. I daresay my friend, a little more appreciation is in order."

When shit happens, you gotta remember that everything happens for a reason and Allah S.W.T will never put an obstacle before someone that he or she won't be able to get through. All we have to do is believe and have faith. And stop being ignorant to what is in front of us. The questions are there for a reason and more often than not, the answers lie within ourselves. Ignorance will make you be blinded to the fact that it is important to answer those questions though it might not deemed to be so. Because simply put, you won't know how much importance the answers will mean to you.

I was once this kid who often takes a "too-serious" view on life. So much that I take things too seriously. And when things go wrong, I tend to blame others except myself. That I tend to just wallow in my sorrow and not do anything.

But now, its different

You see

I'm a joker. I'm a comedian. Thats what I am now.
That's how I deal with life now. See, I've always believed that despite everything being pre-destined, it does not mean that everything is FIXED. He knows what path we will take, but the fact is, we DON'T. WE HAVE A CHOICE. We always do. Its whether we want to take it or not

You can either look at the world and say, "Oh, isn't it all so tragic, so grim, so awful."
Or you can look at the world and decide that it's mostly funny.

If you step back far enough from the details, everything gets funny.
You say war is tragic. I say, isn't it crazy the way people will fight over nothing?
People fight wars to control crappy little patches of empty desert, for crying out loud.
It's like fighting over an empty can. Or like fighting over a stupid plate. Yea, go figure
It's not so much tragic as it is ridiculous. Asinine! Stupid!

You say, isn't it terrible about global warming?
And I say, no, it's funny
We're going to bring on global warming because we ran too many air conditioners?
We used too much spray deodorant, so now we'll be doomed to sweat forever?
That's not sad. That's irony.

You see..thats what I see life as right now.


A joke.

And its totally up to us to whether we want to take a step back and look at the funny side of it.
Or you want to inspect every fine detail of life and miss out mostly on it


Because life is a joke, we are the comedians


Cos it's OUR job to tell it and make it lasting to the people who hears it.


sujudku pun takkan memuaskan inginku
untuk hanturkan sembah sedalam kalbu
adapun kusembahkan syukur padamu ya Allah
untuk nama,harta dan keluarga yang mencinta

dan perjalanan yang sejauh ini tertempa
alhamdulillah pilihan dan kesempatan
yang membuat hamba mengerti lebih baik makna diri
semua lebih berarti akan mudah dihayati

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah,


Alhamdulillah....