What do I do to ignore what's behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride away from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I let it go and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Cause I cant hold when I'm strecthed so thin
I make the right moves but I’m lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself



Everyone has their frailities

Whether they show it or not. Whether its there for all to see.

I have my own weaknesses, my own frailities.

I chose to hide them, such so that only certain people know of them.

Only certain people know where to strike so surgically at that perfect spot, that even the smallest poke might break me.

That aside, my body is finally succumbing to the physical drain inflicted from the past few weeks.

Fortunately, thank God that my emotional and psychological being is currently running at its most efficient. Power of the Unicorn perhaps. heh.

Thursday's the Maths paper. Sick or not, I'm going to get through this.

For Him

For them

For the family

For *you

and finally


For myself



p.s. immbu(:



If I turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll
Take from me till everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
By myself



I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself