In life more often than not we have to choose our battles.
Which one to fight, and which one to let go.

Because thats the harsh nature of it.
We can't keep on fighting everything nor can we win everything

Sometimes we have to lose so that we can understand how it works
Sometimes we have to fall in order to understand how to rise up back again
This is life.
Doesn't mean shit happens you just sit there and cry about it

I've known how it is to be fighting too many battles at one time
And the fact is that I can't let go any one of them as all the outcomes of those battles will determine the outcome of the war.

I've known how it is to have lost all those battles that I've fought for
Simply because I was too stretched thin, my attention too divided between them to effectively think.

When you're fighting too many battles at one go, it just takes one of them to explode in your face and the rest will follow suit.

Because right now, once again I'm fighting too many battles at one time.

A battle against myself
A battle against my surroundings
A battle against my inner demons
A battle to correct and recreate the past


And once again, I foresee that all the outcomes will have a detriment impact on the outcome of each other

Moving on..


Perspective.

Perspectives of you, of your surroundings. Your perspectives.

I'm a personality-chameleon, meaning that I've an ability to change personalities in accordance with what the situation need me be.

Dominantly, I'm a phlegmatic. But I'm also 26% Choleric and 24% Sanguine
Which is bound to change depending on the situation.
I can easily change from a docile observer to a egoistic demander to a happy-go-lucky joker.

Yes I admit it. At times I can be egoistic.

Before you detractors cheer, I ask of you.
Are you so perfect that you yourself have not been egoistic at one point of time?
Everyone has ego

Leaders in particular, needs to have a good hold on theirs.
Simply because they are at a position in which even one simple thing they do wrong, and it will be magnified as if the whole world depended on it.
But at times, leaders themselves need to use their ego.

When at times you have to say NO, or sometimes like it or not, the need to wave your authority comes, thats when the need to use your ego comes. It is your ego that allows you to claim the right to use the authority, which is already fixed to the position you are in.
Whats important is that you keep it in check

On the matter of perspectives..

Don't seek to say that I don't care, just because I don't manifest it openly.
Perhaps you're kinda hurt because you're not my center of affection anymore.
But the fact is...you still are. And you always have been. Just that there's also another person there now. Please, do not compare yourself to her. You two have different standings in my life. But truth be told, same priority to me.

Don't seek to say that I'm not hurt by something, just because I don't show it.
Its just not in my nature to show it. Call it ego, call it whatever, I just don't feel the need to show it. What do you expect me do? Go to one corner and cry about it? When I'm hurt by something, more often then not, I just laugh it off. At times, I do share it with someone else. But usually, I prefer to keep it alone. Simply because I believe in taking it in and moving on. There's no point in being held by it because its already said and done.