What can I say exactly?

Happy?

Yeah I am because of the news yesterday.
Both of them got in, and an extra for me.
Was really proud of those two to say the least.

Sad?

Distraught?

Disheartened?

I don't know

I just don't

Too many emotions at one go
Too many to hold on to

Its a good thing that the paranoia has left.
Because right now, I'm happy enough being jumpy of whats ahead
Rather than also being too cautious of the past.

Too overloaded with a cacophony of emotions.

Its times like this that I really hate the past

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