I said it once and I said it before


Life has an utmost tendency of suddenly turning around and slapping you in the face when you least expect it


I received one just now. Hurts?

Superficially yes

But inside? Not really

I do feel the twinge though


Oh come on

I'm someone who's adept at not letting emotions show
but that doesn't mean I don't feel them at all


Abang Nizam used to say this about me:

Yan, you're too noble that one day, you'll end up saving someone and dying while that person don't give a bloody shit about you.

At long last, something worthwhile to come out from that mouth of his



Back to context,



All this while, I've been preaching on doing the thing that you must do, may it be unpopular or unpolitical. But it has to be done all the same.

Its hard when it gets reflected to yourself. Cos only then you'll realise you're not practising what you preach.

All this while, I've thought I've done the right thing. To have waited till she moved on before I go on myself. To have purposely stalled my own progress just so because I was scared I will hurt that someone.

But like I said, life slaps me by giving me the news that my sacrifice has been for nothing cos all the while she has already attached and moved on and I was being noble for nothing

Absolutely NOTHING


To think that I turned away from someone whom I harbor something for someone whom I used to care alot for

To think that I turned away the future for the past

To think that to stop myself from hurting the past further, I unknowingly detrimented my future


Very nice, Sufyan


Very nice indeed




To someone (nuraini masturah)

I've told you that time that if there's ever a thing that I will look back in regret, it will be that thing. Just so you know. I regret it more than ever now.