I never thought that I would be able to feel that pain again

The pain you feel in your heart when things take a turn for the worst
The pain you feel when you can't do anything about a situation
and

The pain you feel when it finally breaks


but these few days, God decided to prove me wrong

not once

not twice

not even thrice

but numerous times


If you saw what I saw

heard what I heard

and felt what I felt,

you would have understood why


To have seen the atrocity of what man can do.
To have seen how disgusting it is when man is fueled too much by passion and not rational thinking.
To have seen how easily man can put aside Him all because of a thing called "desire".
To have seen how one leader almost lost it but managed to hold it back in him.

You asked me what can you do.
I ask you back.

What CAN we do?

When all we do will be judged wrongly and pre-emptively.
When what we can do will not be taken nicely by them.
All we can do...

is the same thing we have done all these while
Be tolerant.

Tolerance is key here.
But tolerance has its limits.


To hear the words that you've been dreading all along
To know the fact that you've been denying
To come to the realisation that the person that you turned your back on might be the one for you.
To face the truth that there's nothing you can do but look back and wonder why


When the news came to me, admittedly I was prepared for it
but that doesn't mean I'm prepared to feel the pain

Yes I admit, it really is quite painful to know that. But its good that I know that sooner rather than later.



A lesser man would have crumbled and fall having faced all these ordeals.

I have crumbled

and I have fell


But I'm standing back up

because I accept all these happenings

and I believe that everything happens for a reason.


namun, ku tetap redha terhadap kehendakMu oh Illahi


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