To some, it has come as a sudden.

Yes, even to her I might say it is.


1 year and 4 months of a relationship that we have built together gone down just like that in one night.

Let it be said that it wasn't something that I decided to do on a spur of the moment.

Rather, it had taken me quite sometime to digest it, to mull it over.

My best brothers, Farhan Spiderpig ,Syafiq Gaylord and Hadi Drugboy was there to help me through this.
So are my proteges Ahlina and Rohani.


Needless to say, they were the first to know about this predicament.

This happened a few months ago, of course

Some of you might ask why the secrecy behind the break-up.

I answer you this.

Because of the simple fact that I don't want anyone in the Committee...especially some of you guys, to start doubting Azlin's and my ability to work together.

People always have this foresight of when a couple broke up, they'll shunt each other for life.

I say thats bloody crap.


They forgot that me and Hazimah (we had sort of a history together) can work damn well together in Programmer department.

What makes them think that me and Lin can't work together well?

Please people, I'm a firm believer of this.

Before we became a couple, we started off as friends.
If it were to end, then let us still be friends.

During my fall apart with Hazimah, that was what I said to her.
I told her that for now, my heart still can't take the fact that she wasn't meant for me.
But I promised her that I'll return when I learn to accept it.
and I did.


People often ask me too, why I can move on easily with life.
Its as if I didnt have any attachments to it in the first place.

Its because I've learnt at a young age that everything ends one way or the other in this world
Whether you like it or not.

I've told myself to never be attached too much to something or someone that I have utmost difficulty of letting go or facing the fact that it has ended.
Thats why I can move on easily with life last time.

But now, I've learnt instead that it is not wrong to love someone fully with all your heart.

But what you have to do also, is to embrace pain too.

Because love and pain comes hand in hand.
To embrace one you have to embrace the other.
Acceptance in the path you have taken.

Can I learn to love again after what I've went through?
Wallahuakhlam.
Only God has the answers to that.


But its goddamn right when I say
I've learn to embrace the pain.

have you?